Hitting forty brought me the blessing of my third child. All the social rights and wrongs flowing through my mind during pregnancy but I tell you once my baby was in my arms; I didn’t give a rams damn or a dog’s diddy of the opinions of others. “My life, our blessing”!!
Whilst on maternity leave, I started my own business that hasn’t made me into the millionaire that I had hoped but what it has done is teach me that not all successes are measured by the coins in my pocket. My business has connected me with some pretty amazing people that I would never had the opportunity of meeting if I hadn’t started.
In March 2017, I attended an event at the Excel Centre in London. I pitched up my wears and spent the next few hours over thinking, underthinking, arranging, rearranging!! You name it I did It!! Once I had got over myself, I noticed across from me the most colourful, bright and trendy clothing stall with a banner that read “yogaleggs”.
Over the next three days, I became intrigued by the two ladies running the yogaleggs stand. They had something about them that I couldn’t quite put my finger on. They had a warmth about them and a genuine interest in sharing advice with me and my partner. They were in fact the opposite to me, highly strung, anxious, worried, concerned. These two ladies were as chilled as!! and I was completely taken aback!!
Over the next three days, we got to talking with Becki and Mandy, about everything and anything. We laughed, joked and just enjoyed the time. I watched how relaxed they were with each customer and how their products were just flying off the shelves.
At the end of the three days, we parted company with hugs and kisses and the usual “let’s keep in touch”. But as lady luck would have that’s exactly what we did.
We met the girls again at one of their amazing charity events. During the event, I looked around; there was an undertone of support and connectedness with how this network of ladies were with each other. It was an energy that I could feel and see. I was totally mesmerized by it and I wanted some of it in my own life.
So as soon as left, I decided that I was going to find out what all this Yoga was about. Don’t get me wrong I was totally out of my comfort zone as I am neither nimble nor balanced be that physically or metaphorically. Nevertheless, I wanted more information so I looked online and started a home Yoga practice using a mat, my newly purchased yogaleggs, my smart TV and YouTube.
At first, I was concentrating more on the physical side of the practice as opposed to connecting mind, body and soul. A term that was totally alien to me. The notion of working out whilst connecting to my inner self was beyond my comprehension. Any reference to “quiet the mind” confused the hell out of me. I thought “how in the name of anything that is sacred could I quiet my mind”.
But Never say never!! And here I am six months into my Yoga practice and I have become a new me. A me that I love, and for the first time in my forty-two years I can say it out loud that I am worthy.
My Yoga practice has thought me how to be still, to be present and how the body and mind are intertwined. Believe me when I tell you, I have read every single self help book on the planet but nothing has helped in such a short space of time as Yoga has. I have not only joined a weekly class but also practice five days at home. All this from a girl who just don’t do exercise!!
Before Yoga, I was so anxious. I am talking the whole of my adult life here. I constantly took my breath high in my chest which they call “fight or flight” breathing. Now I can breath. It sounds simple and it so is. Back to basics, learning the foundations, Inhale, Exhale, Breath.
I would never have imagined that it was that simple. I had made life so complicated. I walked around with my mind in yesterday and tomorrow whilst missing the beauty that was surrounding me in the present moment and that is down to these two ladies introducing me to Yoga. For which, I am forever indebted!!
They have introduced me to gong workshops, holistic therapy, kuldini practice, breathing. These ladies have given me so much and asked for nothing in return. They have asked me to share my experience of my new found yoga practice. So this is my story, I am six months in Yoga years, a self-cynic that is being healed practice by practice.
Oh, and by the way, the icing on the cake is that I am more toned than ever, my ass has lifted, thighs have hardened, Dare I say but sex is the best it’s been! It must be all that pelvic floor work but we will leave that for another blog!
Thanks for reading Namaste xx looking forward to the road ahead xx